just busy.

yes, we are busy around here. i don't know where the days seem to be going. but go they do. i guess its just daily stuff. before i know it we are at the end of another day, or already another week. homework, friends, school activities, sports practices. even our weekends seem full of the same. not a lot of real family time. alex is busy at work. gone a lot these days. he sweeps in and out here and there. i'll try not to complain though, cause at least he comes home and we love that. :)

logan and alex left for a wrestling championship already. weigh-ins were at 8am. i hope logan walks away with a win today. it'd be nice to end the season with a nice fat win!! camille has her basket ball playoffs at about noon today. they were number one and then they lost 2 games. the last one, they lost by one point at the buzzer. what a game.

next up, we are waiting to find out teams for lacrosse. like i said, our days are busy.

isabelle is working on her science project for school.

and trying to keep her grades up and not get involved in all the drama of 5th grade girls.

i am doing my thing. i got a little frustrated about the whole looking for a job thing, and so kinda gave up for now. it was just causing me so much stress and i needed to keep doing my mom/wife stuff too. so thats what ive been doing. house stuff. groceries, meals, errands. house projects.

i am not even close to opening my etsy shop yet. i thought i would be. but, no not yet. the little basket here is where i throw in products i want to create with. and as you can see, it is full. i did go downstairs and create a bit yesterday. i made 2 really flamboyant cards. and 2 scrapbook pages. one of logan and his stuffed puppy. the other of me at my college graduation. it felt nice to do anything scrapbook related. its been a while. if i could ever just organize my time better, i know i could do a lot more with my days. i just can never seem to get it together. maybe one day...

well i gotta get off this dang computer --many things to do before camille's game.

whats everyone else busy with???

xoxo

Happy Valentine's Day

what a lovely happy sweet lil ol day.

so far, camille had basket ball practice, we went to the library, cleaned up (some) around the house, played with henry, finished up valentines to give to kids and alex later tonight...and the girls and i are hanging out now, while the boys are off at a wrestling match.

i hope logan gets a win. he hasn't been doing so hot. he has a good attitude about his loses. and he usually goes to practice and matches willingly. not today however. he was not feeling so good today and so he pulled a nasty tantrum about going earlier. it was ugly, alex carried him out to the truck, kicking and screaming. i had to laugh when logan started punching alex...i mean, the kid throws some narley fits, but never has he hit someone. its just not in him. so i was surprised and it cracked me up. wrong of me probably, but youd have to know how sweet logan is to appreciate it. and how alex and i have been having conversations about how hes just not that tough guy we sometimes wish he'd be. like when it comes time to win wrestling matches. he dosnt like grabbing boys or throwing them down, tackling whatever those moves are called. he tries, but you can tell..its not him. which is too bad, cause my lil boy is just a pound or 2 shy of 90 pounds and thats pretty big for a 3rd grader. he thinks hes skinny and little in his mind....but no, hes a big husky sweet boy. and i sure love him. and thank goodness i have a 6'4" 250 pound honeyman husband who can pick up a 90 pound eight year old like it snothing and toss him into the truck...cause ive had my days of dealing with the tantrums and im afraid that im pretty much matched by the kids now. they are all just about as big as me..or nearly as strong...so happy a big strong daddy was here to take care of things. i love both those guys. my guys--who just happen to look alike bigtime ...and share the same ability to throw a narley fit. :)

oh- yes i love my girlies too. they are upstairs playing a game together..right this minute. and guess what? no fighting yet. but i shouldnt talk about that, or else i'll spoil it and a cat attack wil follow. my girls are not like logan--they have been known to throw a punch or two. and as much as id like to say it came from elsewhere...i have a tiny suspiscion it came from their mama. a girls gotta hold her own--thats all im sayin.

anyways my sweet girls are growing and changing every day right before my eyes. its amazing that God gave me such children to love. i really am thankful for them. they push every nerve and twist every ounce of patience out of me...but i guess i wouldnt want it any other way, ya know? i like days that remind me to feel the fullness of my life, the blessings i have in my day, the love in my heart because of them. isn't that the point of such days.

so--speaking of love and valentines day--alex hates this day. he says he hates the commercialism of it all. and he hates to see the all the hoopla about it...what a dumb day--so he says. I think he just uses that attitude as an excuse for when he forgets each year to get my a valentine. if only hed ever realize id love a lil note from him, or a bunch of yellow daisies-which are my favorite--not expensive roses. its ok though we all have our ways of showing our love, and after 15 years of knowing this man, i most certainly know and adore his. but id still welcome those daisies...

i rather like valentines day. having a husband who doesnt care, doesnt really allow me to enjoy it on the receiving end, but i always like to bake sweet treats and give the heart shaped boxes and something tiny for my loved ones. my dad use to always give us candy boxes on valentines, and growing up without a whole lot--well i really loved those days. i felt special and loved getting my heart box of chocolates. just loved it. and so i like to do it for my family too. i like to take candies and package them up lovingly for them to tear into and make them crazy as they romp around the house happily. yeah--i just love it. it works for me. the kids usually run up and cut me out a heart card real quick cause theyve really forgotten again and thats fine. i get a cute lil love message and it makes my heart full and happy to give this day each year. thats what counts.

happy heart day everyone.

xoxo

superbowl sunday and stuff

so, who else is watching the Superbowl??

we are all being kinda homeyish (not a word i know) today and it is ending nicely. watching the game, eating chips and popcorn shrimp, rice and sausage and cooked carrots for dinner.

camille's basketball team lost their first game today. bummer. but its ok, it'll encourage them to push themselves in next sundays game.

last week we had a snow storm and the kids were off of school anyway, so they got some snow play in. no pictures though i was kinda too lazy. they only went to school monday and friday last week, so it was a busy at home -and stuck at home-kind of time for us.

this is hopefully the last week with izzys cast. she has a big dance recital on thursday night. we thought she got her cast off the day before, but no--its the day after. so...dang it, we'll have to see if we say just do the show with one arm. shes worked so hard. they will be having a spring class so she could do the class again with both arms, and do the next recital. hmm....

i am still looking for a job. no luck so far. i hope soon. at first it was just to keep me busy, but as expensive as maryland is...now its turning into a priority that i get some kind of income. i am sad to say that my hobby of cards is not making me any money. nothing that would help. and because of this, there is a very strong possibility that i will be quiting stampin up for good. it is just not the most cost effective way for me to keep going. i use to get enough orders here and there, and well now not so much.

my thoughts on this have gone both ways. i have been sad knowing things will change for me. but at the same time, i am gearing myself up to open up my own etsy shop. i have wanted to for a long time. it is a online store so to speak where you can sell your own handmade art. ive had my own shop already made for a long time, just haven't jumped into putting any stuff into it. it is my goal to make that happen. and very soon.

i think focusing on that will be a good thing for me. i can use all the loads of products i have from various companies and not feel limited to only using stampin up!. it will all work out. i have faith.

i also have good health news. i was really having some issues that were making me wonky. well after a few weeks worth of doctor visits and results coming in. i am perfectly fine. only thing that changed is i need a new eyeglass prescription. i'd say that is pretty darn good news.

so all the hair falling out, yellow eyes, 15 pounds of extra weight, depression, anxiety, hormonal issues---well, it turns out all of that is just plain ol ME. along with some environmental issues that i just didn't know how to deal with.

the new plan is to breathe, and feel better each day. to try to focus on doing things around the house, eat better, let go of some things that cause me anxiety, pray more....pray a lot more....

i must focus on getting into a routine, check things off my list, create things for my esty shop, find and apply for more part time jobs until someone calls me back--anyone out there need a girl like me from about 830am til 230pm???? give me a call. just kidding. but the job search will continue. it must. alex is relying on me to help with our income now, and as stressful as this has become, i want to as well. i bet lots of my "issues" would go away if i had something good and positive to do with my time each day. a way to help others, grow in my experiences, share my time and talents.

i am praying God can help me with all this as well. He usually does, half the time when i don't even realize it. sometimes I'm slow to His ways. but i eventually get it.

my pictures today are some cards Ive been working on. along with some Valentine stuff that i did a few weeks ago and couldn't find my camera card so i never showed them here.

so, anyway, enjoy my goodies, and send a hug through the net for me, i could use it.

xoxox